Eye for an Eye pt3

[CarolinePar]

Okay I promised myself I wouldn't get too "personal" in this site but seeing as I'm too wound up to sleep I need to let it out somewhere...

Earlier today I let my youngest out to "play" outside - while she is 12 and with some specail concern - I let her go alone with the understanding that she not go past the playground with the slide (no streets to cross but yet less than 5 mins walking distance) or to anyone's house without telling me first

nearly an hour and a half later it was getting dark and she had not returned

In going to look for her - I found her talking to some kid in the middle of the steet who took one look at me and he wheeled off with the "oh @#$%" face

part of me wants to believe she lost track of time

but then she told me she was beaten up - kicks and slaps - from at least 2 older boys and several she couldn't tell who they were but were yelling various insults...

still all I seem to hear is to wait until tommorow to solve this - I'm sick to my insides not knowing what to do.

I'm upset about this but I'm not sure what to respond to - that she disobeyed me and got hurt when going off when she was told NOT to

or to assure her she's all right when I'm feeling more @#$%ed up after going it over in my head for the upteenth time?!

I doubt I'll be able to sleep tonight - I feel like I've been dry heaving for the last half hour alone ...:banghead:

I'm not sure if I WANT to kick the everloving mess out of who did this but I'm just...I don't know ;(